Random thoughts (really needing to just get stuff off of my chest....)

Tuesday, May 30, 2006


So I have been doing weight watchers now for about 10 weeks... I actually like it. I thought it would really suck. But 12-14 lbs later (depends on if I have pooped before I weigh myself- I know too much information) I am still feeling okay with this lifestyle. Loving finding new 2 point treats. Put it this way I spent 1/4 of my points today on ice cream type treats. I have such a sweet tooth.

Work is going well. Another patient of my died this weekend. I guess this will become my new normal. There are two pretty young ones of mine that are taking the turn toward the dying process. Blah.

Went to my folks lake house this weekend. So much fun. Sun and family. Good stuff. Got to see my sister's belly- my niece is in there!! That was fun. J actually had the weekend off. We are starting wedding planning and making things. I have all of the stuff to make the invitations- I just need to do it.

J's b-day is coming up. I have no idea what to get him. Hiking stuff I suppose.

Off to watch a movie.

New song to listen for "Dear Mr. President" by PINK. I love her. And he is such an idiot!!

Friday, May 26, 2006

Death arrives

So I have started to lose some of my patients. This has been really hard. I get all of the young ones as well so I think it almost is harder. If you have BC/BS your Social Worker must have a MSW and since I am the only one there- yep, they are mine. So I lost a 49 year old on Wednesday and one of my 51 year old women is dying as I type. She more than likely won't make it through the night. Cancer sucks! So do a lot of other things but really cancer is the most prevalent on my case load. Especially with the young patients.

We are headed up to my folks this weekend. I am so excited to get out on the boat and go tubing. I love being in the water and I just happened to open my mail box today and low and behold- there was my new swim suit!!

The weight thing is going well. I have lost another 14 lbs since starting weight watchers. Not sure how much more I want to go. Initially I never thought I would want to be lower than I am now but I still have so much chub. I guess I need to work out more. But I am doing this the healthy way and I feel good about it. And the wedding is a pretty good motivation...

J actually got the weekend off when he was supposed to be there all weekend. How wonderful that it worked out this way. We get to be gone until Monday afternoon. Yeah. I hope to be water logged by the time we get back.

I have started making my wedding invitations- only have to make 12 I think so that's fun and exciting. We are meeting with my "dad" next week to discuss our wedding ceremony. He is the one marrying us.

That's all for now.

Did I mention Veda rides her bike without training wheels now?!

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Love and Logic??

So that is the new parenting method J and I are going to try with V. We are having a difficult time. It's funny that she is almost always "the perfect child" when we are around other people but when it's just us- boy does she start. So last night my straw broke and I drove to a few of my best friends house to pick up the books and CD's so I can start learning how to be a better parent. Right now I am just an injustice to V. Feeling like I am a sucky mom today. Can you tell???

Monday, May 15, 2006

Back in the saddle again...

So I am officially a working woman. I do like the job. I am getting my sea legs and feel like I fit in. Blah Blah.

I spent yesterday fighting with V. Nice mother's day huh?! I guess that's why I am a mother- to be one on mother's day. But it was frustrating to say the least.

J reminded me today that it is less than three months until we get married. WOW! I swear I just met him. Really it has been a while but time flies. I love that I am looking out my window now and he is across the field feeding our ground hog "Henry". We save all of our dinner scraps for "Henry" so he gets some good grub. I love that I have found a boy who loves animals as much as I do. Speaking of that- I found a cat while at a patients home that was covered in oil. They were not going to do anything about it because they could not afford it. I decided to take the cat "EXXON" (I decided that he needed a fitting name) to my vet. All in all it turned out well. EXXON is now living with two little kids and is happy.

We are going to be starting the addition to our house soon. Can't wait. We are just waiting on our builder to finalize drawings and we are going to get going. YEAH! I'll be sitting pretty in my new hot tub.

The only down thing now is that I continue to miss my friends. I am going to try and schedule lunch dates to fill my loneliness for them.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

I have wings!!

So today I get my own patients. I don't know why I am excited about this. I guess just to get going in this new job world. V hates that I am working all the time. For the last two mornings she has been grumpy about it. Don't know what I should do. J has offered to work more and let me go part time or stay home but it really seems like I should be working. Isn't that why I went to school?

V has her dance rehearsal's the next few days. Lots of time and energy for 30 seconds on the stage. She'll be cute and I will be proud of her but a lot of time and money... She is finished with gymnastics for now. I really didn't like her coach. Frankly she sucked. I wish HG was still here so I could just have her do it.

Wedding is coming up. Still debating on what we are going to do for food. Whatever is what I say. It isn't about food- it's about J and me.

Still don't know where we are going on our honeymoon. J has it all planned. I'm Nervous now- but know it will be awesome (probably a lot of outdoor things- that's okay too).

Missing my friends. I feel a bit out of the loop. Hard to keep up when you only have a few hours a day and you want to spend those with your family. V does go to bed at 8:00.